How should I say this...
I haven't been to fellowship for ages. After going to cell group for BBQ; I kind of feel bad. I haven't gone for a few weeks; suddenly show up when our cell group's having BBQ and then disappear after again. I feel like people will only think that I went for the food. Sigh, I'll let people think whatever they want.
So after not going to fellowship for about a month and a few weeks, my friends invited me to their Coffee House/Gospel Night at their church. I hesitated a lot and knew I would feel uncomfortable because the friend I usually went with wouldn't be going because she's currently not in the country. So I thought really hard about it. Not to mention I've been seeing signs everywhere; telling me that I should go to fellowship.
First I see two people I've seen around fellowship before come to our church; like... regularly now.
Second I suddenly see my cell group leader when I go to piano class. He changed his schedule for the summers.
Third I'm not even sure but i'm positive I saw two people from fellowship crossing the road near where I live. And I don't even think they live close by... ._.
Fourth; I see a group of people from fellowship. Or at least I saw some people i knew from fellowship.
Fifth; I see two people a year younger than us from fellowship in a mall.
And Sixth; I just know I saw other people!!!
So tell me if I'm wrong but I believe those WERE signs. I know they were!!!!
So that's why I decided to go to fellowship after being invited by my friends. It's a first step after my friend left; no? But even though I decided to go and dragged my cousin along; i still felt very nervous and uncomfortable. :| I'm just that type of person, okk? D: But I'm glad that I went. I felt peace in my heart after Friday Night. I was content and happy.
Watching the acts and taking in what was being shown in front of me and what I heard, I truly felt God's love and grace and all. On the car ride home, I told my dad that I felt lucky to have known God so soon at a young age. If I hadn't known God then, where would I be now? Would I still be the same me? Or a totally different me? Would I be as happy as I am now?
I know for sure that I wouldn't be me. Knowing God, I have found peace in my heart, not only peace actually. I've found many things; happiness, love, peace... and the truth about life. Well... I'm probably still searching that, but knowing that God's beside me, I'll definitely find it one day.
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