Retreat! One Family. One Heart. One Mission.

Love how I'm so "i hate this" in my other blog but i'm so "it was awesome!" in this blog.
What can i say?
Mixed feeling right now?
my parents and I just came back from our church retreat at YMCA Geneva Park, which is 2 hours north of Toronto.
The place was really pretty even if it is a "camp". They served a full day's meal with breakfast, lunch, dinner, and even snack after 10.
We got it for a cheap price since the church paid for part of it. We even got to skate and go cross country skiing, but I stayed in the dining hall doing something winter break homework (just reading). My parents went cross country skiing though.
Over 100 people came on this retreat, and God did a wonderful thing. Many people were healed, and many families reunited.
I really felt that God's presence was there with us the whole way through.
I even made a new friend during the retreat. I got to talk to many other people I usually don't talk to as well.
At night, the youths would gather together and play cards until 2am while all the adults were sleeping. Haha, it was really fun!
Long story short, I'm glad I ended up going because I felt a bit like a new person. Not fully, but a bit. At least that's something!
So retreat was really good!
The place was really nice, i loved the dining hall area.
The food was good too.
Not just those, but just everything in general.
Just being there.
I'm glad I chose to go in the end.
I really felt God's love. His love for me, and the love he put in my family.
I also felt closer to SOME of the youths at my church, but really? I think everything will be back to normal once sunday comes again. Depending where I go i guess.
My church's decided to split into two. A North York one, and a York Region one.
I'm not sure whether I like this or not. What about the friends we have in church that we've been with since the first day we went to church? Although you're not really supposed to go to church for friends, but you still need friends right?
Anyway, right. Retreat.
God's presence was with each of us the whole way through.
I feel like I've inched a bit closer to God than I was before retreat.
I'm not sure how long I can hold on to this one little inch before I fall back.
But i'm willing to do what i can to hold on tightly to it and hopefully inch closer.
I'll climb the rope that's tied to God even though i'm barely near him. Even though i'm more near the end of the rope. I'll climb though! Step by step, i'll get closer to him.

God, I saw the love that you put in everyone in those 3 days. And I hope that they can continue feeling the love that you delicately put in them. The parents who love their children, thank you for being there for the children and the parents. Thank you for not giving up on any of us, but encouraging us. I feel that this retreat has brought the children and parents closer to each other. The warmth and love that we all found through you, from you, and from our parents. The understanding that may have once been lost between parents and children, you were there to help us pull through to see the truth. Though at the age of a teenager, they no longer want to communicate with their parents as much, but thank you for giving our parents the heart to still care for us. Though they've done so much for them, we always push them away. I understand that much. I pray that the teens of this generation and so on will grow to see their parents love for them and the care they put into their love.

My Heart.

Where's my heart going?
I wonder about that.
I feel like I'm being pulled away from God, and I put no effort into trying to get closer.
"I'm sorry God."

Sometimes you think to yourself.
"Oh, the world is ending soon. I should go read the bible now."
In my heart, that is what I do.
well, to be more accurate, that's what I hope i'm not doing.
I wonder to myself after even my mom telling me. "Do you only seek God when you face trouble?"
Well, no. I don't. When I'm happy, I sometimes talk to God, or when I'm bored.
But those conversations...
Well, they're not "not meaningful".
But they're not heartfelt conversations either.
It's like a small joke to a normal human friend.
I know that I'm distancing from God, quite a bit.
When I think of it, it's scary.
Not to mention, I also know that the world is ending soon...
Put those two together and you get: omgsh the world's ending soon i really should start getting closer to God so I can go to heaven instead of going to hell.
Is that really it?
Is that what I think?
I'm not sure...
I'm wondering about that question myself. Is that how I'm thinking?
Is the reason why I only want to get close to God, really only because of wanting to go to heaven?
I don't think it's guilty to think like that, but i don't think it's right either...
We're God's lover.
To me, when i think like that, I feel like i'm using God. And I don't like thinking that i'm using him.
But then, am I supposed to conclude with not getting closer to God?
I don't think so...
I tell myself to just get closer to God.
It works....
for a while.
After a few days it's back to normal. Normal, as in "eat.sleep.computer.ipod.text.eat.sleep.computer.ipod.text"
Is that really what life is about though?
Eating when you're hungry.
Sleeping when you're tired.
Going on computer for entertainment although sometimes people go on for inappropriate stuff. :/
^What is the world becoming??
Listening to iPod for music, and if you have an iTouch or iPad or whatever you play games.
Texting your best friend instead of calling, although that's no difference or a problem.
is THAT what life is about?
Where's my life going?
Where is my heart leading me?
God... help me.
give me OPPORTUNITIES to get closer to you, and find the truth in life.
Let me hold your hand so that i can walk with you again to where you are leading my life to.
Without you Lord, my life is nothing.
nothing.

PTL

I would like to thank those who prayed for me, but I'd especially like to thank God for healing me. (:
As you know, my toe was injured a few days ago and I've been frightened to death, but I kept my faith in God that it would heal.
Although it's stupid to say that I won't go to the doctor because I have God... because God made doctors for a reason, right? P:
But yeah, Thank you for your prayers, and thank you for healing my toe Lord. (:
It is A LOT better, but it's not completely gone yet. (:
Thank you<3

Excuse me, do you have some time?

I have a prayer request. ):
Yesterday I stubbed my fourth toe on the edge of the door and it did not feel good.
I was walking out the door ( I don't even know how i kicked the door ) but the next thing I knew, I was on the ground holding my toe.
I thought that it was okay, I just kicked the door by accident, although it still hurt.
So I put some nutmeg medicated oil on it and put on a bandaid.
I went to my cousin's room at night and looked at my toe to see something purple. O___O;
and then i noticed that the purple thing, was my toe. >//<
so apparently the blood vessel broke.
It was okay since it wasn't the whole thing that was purple...
my cousin and mom said that if the whole toe was purple, then i'd have to get it chopped off. );
Which is why i'm scared.
Because it seems like my whole toe is turning purple. X___X;;
my mom said that it was because my feet are used to follow God and that I haven't been following him so my foot's going to get chopped off. T__T;
So my prayer request is that my toe heals quickly. ):
I've learned my lesson. And I'm sorry for not following God. ):
But I really don't want my toe chopped off. );
I'm scared.

Apology

Dear God,
I'm sorry.  
I'm sorry. 
I'm sorry. 
I'm sorry.

Coffee House`10~aug 6

How should I say this...
I haven't been to fellowship for ages. After going to cell group for BBQ; I kind of feel bad. I haven't gone for a few weeks; suddenly show up when our cell group's having BBQ and then disappear after again. I feel like people will only think that I went for the food. Sigh, I'll let people think whatever they want.

So after not going to fellowship for about a month and a few weeks, my friends invited me to their Coffee House/Gospel Night at their church. I hesitated a lot and knew I would feel uncomfortable because the friend I usually went with wouldn't be going because she's currently not in the country. So I thought really hard about it. Not to mention I've been seeing signs everywhere; telling me that I should go to fellowship.
First I see two people I've seen around fellowship before come to our church; like... regularly now.
Second I suddenly see my cell group leader when I go to piano class. He changed his schedule for the summers.
Third I'm not even sure but i'm positive I saw two people from fellowship crossing the road near where I live. And I don't even think they live close by... ._.
Fourth; I see a group of people from fellowship. Or at least I saw some people i knew from fellowship.
Fifth; I see two people a year younger than us from fellowship in a mall.
And Sixth; I just know I saw other people!!!
So tell me if I'm wrong but I believe those WERE signs. I know they were!!!!
So that's why I decided to go to fellowship after being invited by my friends. It's a first step after my friend left; no? But even though I decided to go and dragged my cousin along; i still felt very nervous and uncomfortable. :| I'm just that type of person, okk? D: But I'm glad that I went. I felt peace in my heart after Friday Night. I was content and happy.
Watching the acts and taking in what was being shown in front of me and what I heard, I truly felt God's love and grace and all. On the car ride home, I told my dad that I felt lucky to have known God so soon at a young age. If I hadn't known God then, where would I be now? Would I still be the same me? Or a totally different me? Would I be as happy as I am now?
I know for sure that I wouldn't be me. Knowing God, I have found peace in my heart, not only peace actually. I've found many things; happiness, love, peace... and the truth about life. Well... I'm probably still searching that, but knowing that God's beside me, I'll definitely find it one day.

A reminder to call on God

So a few days ago, I had a dream. It was a dream that felt too real to be just a dream. But it was indeed JUST A DREAM. So what WAS this dream? I shall take what I wrote to my friend and paste it here. Exactly what I wrote. So there WILL be some "you" in it; which was meant for my friend. But since YOU, reader, are also my friend, whether I know you or not, you can pretend that the dream is also about you. And so the dream... starts.

So Dear Tina,

   I had a dream. This was no ordinary dream. It's a dream that may be able to tell the future! But possibly not. (: I dreamt, that there was a tremendous and frightening earthquake. An earthquake so strong that you could see the ground shake, and the buildings shake when you stood outside. So strong that it just kept going and going. Strangely enough, no one was harmed, and nothing was damaged. But the earthquake just kept going and going. You and I stood outside looking around like lost lambs. Wondering what to do, wishing not to have our lives put at the end of the line already. Our first instinct; was to call on God. We just kept yelling for God. You see, we were yelling FOR God, not AT God. We didn't say "WHY God? WHY are you doing this to us?! WHY???" Instead, we went "GOD, please hear our cry as we need you desperately!" We yelled for him at the top of our lungs. And keep in mind, 'twas only you and i. I saw no other human around us.

   I still remember what you said to me in my dream, "jacqueline, keep calling on God! It's the only thing we can do right now!" So I kept yelling and yelling and screaming for God to help us. And within time... the earthquake stopped. All was still, nothing was heard but the sound of breathing coming from us.

   I guess you can pretty much say, that it's another small reminder for me. A reminder that no matter HOW big the problem is to ALWAYS call on God. Even problems as big as an earthquake, where one snap can lead you to your death in life, to always call for God. The earthquake was big remember? It seemed like it could even split the whole earth in half. I bet, it was on the verge of splitting in half, but God heard our cries. And with his might, he stretched out his hands and kept the earth from cracking. 

   A message, i do believe. Problems as big as earthquakes, problems which seems like it'll crack in half any minute and cause you to stress too much, problems that will make you cry, any problems, just call on God. Like he did in my dream, he'll do in reality. He'll stretch out his hands and help us hold onto our problems. Give our burdens unto the Lord was it not? 

   Life lesson given by God to share with you. (: It's a life lesson dream about you and i. Perhaps we're the ones who need it most... Maybe not now... but in the future. Who knows...

   Love you Teenie♥~

From,

 jacqueline.

 I can tell you the truth; that was one EPIC dream I have ever had. Not only was it a dream for me, but it was also a reminder and message for me. 

Remember everyone; no matter HOW BIG your problem is, God can face it. Why? God is MUCH bigger than your problem. (: He looks at the problem... like it's as small as an ant... okay maybe that's not the right way to say it. But God CAN defeat the problem. A reminder everyone; keep your faith up and let it keep growing♥

11:11 or a prayer?

So have you ever heard of 11:11?
A time you wish for something and it's said to supposedly happen. (even though i find it untrue...)
I'm sure we've all tried it at least once. (:
I've definitely tried it more than once. But only when my friends happens to tell me it's 11:11 and that when i look at the time, it's not 11:12 or later.
So what do you all say?
"I wish......"
That's what you say right? well, that's really the only thing you say. "I wish..." and then whatever you wish for.
Strangely, for me, I don't say that. Well, I sometimes do, but sometimes instead of starting it off with "I wish..." I start it off with "Dear God..."
And sometimes at the end, I add in "In Jesus' name, Amen".
I guess I'm used to it, it just feels right. (:
But I guess that's also good. It makes me feel happier if I say that.
So really, my wish, has become my prayer♥

not symmetrical?

Sometimes when you look at yourself, something's not right. Or when you touch a part of your body, it doesn't feel right either. A body is not symmetrical. One eye is smaller than the other, one arm might be slightly longer. A human body is NOT symmetrical.
For me, i understand that. I honestly do. It's just sometimes my body's so NOT symmetrical is actually scares me to death. Take my rib cage for example, i don't know what i've actually realized this, probably earlier this year or late last year, but the left side of my rib cage sticks outwards. Like, when the rib cage curved around, it's usually seen as flat, but the left side of my rib cage kind of keeps running upwards.
THAT is what scares me. Even though i've been reassured that it's just that my body's not symmetrical, that i'm not going to die, it still scares me.
I've even prayed to the Lord about this.
Lord, I know that you are with me, and I know that this side of the rib cage is probably just my body and it will do no harm, i'm still scared. Please help me be calm about this.
Sometimes the prayer works, yet somehow the other time it doesn't.
I remember at night before i fell sleep, i started being scared again. So scared i wanted to start puking. (not sure if i've already told the story) so i prayed and listened to christian songs. It didn't help so i turned the lights on, stopped the music and started reading this spiritual devotional like book. I flipped to the part that i was supposed to be on. What do you know? It talks about someone being so scared that she starts thinking too much about death. I immediately found the connection. The person also said that Jesus had already come down to Earth and conquered death so we shouldn't be afraid. I'm not too sure, but it made me more confident. I felt that God was talking to me that instant through the book.
And thinking about it, i was scared just a while ago.
You can stick your fingers in my rib cage, that's what made me scared.
I tried pushing the rib cage so that hopefully it will somehow bend downwards as well.
But after thinking about that night, I suddenly feel confident again.
I know that it was a message from God telling me not to worry and that it won't harm me.
So I say,
Satan, stop trying to ruin my life. You and I both know that God is going to win; always.
you can try with all your might, but i know for sure, that God is fighting along side me and will reassure me that I, his daughter, will be fine as long as i put my trust and faith in him.

But people, even if i'm not scared now, somewhere along the future i may still be scared. So I ask for a prayer request, pray that i will always remember that night that God showed me the message. A precious message from a father to a daughter. I will update the prayer request page now.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. (:

Love you all♥

National Day of World Prayer

Yeah so I don't exactly know what this is, but maybe Tinaa. can explain since she sent me the invite thing. I only know that you pray... For what purpose? No idea.
But despite that,
I shall keep all of you in my prayers tonight. (:
And maybe a short one here. :P
*clears throat*
let us start.

Dear Heavenly Father who art in heaven,
 Hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us--- (Lol okay no. That's the Lord's Prayer. (: Not mine.It's from Luke11:2-4. I'll say it again after my own prayer. :P)

Anyway,
Dear Heavenly Father who art in Heaven,
Thank you for all you have ever done and will ever do for us now, for us in the past, and for us in the future years that have yet to come. You know all because you are that mighty and great. How God is an Awesome God indeed. I pray that you bless each and every soul that art in earth and forgive those who are in need to be forgiven by you because they have sinned. And yes Lord, we all sin, that is why we all need your forgiveness. If we are angered by another, then we must also learn to forgive so that your blessing, mercy and forgiveness may gather upon our very soul. And Lord, there are yet many things to come in the future, and I pray that you keep all of us in your hands. That we are all kept in your safety. When we need someone's shoulder, you are always there for us.
Lord, may you give us the wisdom, power and courage to spread your word and the gospel to non-believers so that they may also, rejoice in you with us. 
I also pray for those who are caught in disasters. I pray that your love with flow within them and that they will all heal quickly. Emotional state and physical state. I know that it hurts you more to see us hurt. You love us that much.
Life is harsh, yes indeed. And with all that's happening around us as the years go by, life will get a lot tougher. So Lord, i pray in advance that you guide us through this hardship and let us be able to walk with you along to the path of life and light. Though it may be hard and many obstacles and bumps along the way, I know it is worth it in the end. Let us  be able to walk that way with you and with faith in you, that we may conquer all along the path to be able to sit with you in Heaven.
Lord, some people can't see how much you really love them. They are afraid of the truth, YOUR truth. They know not that the truth is the only way to set them free. Free from misery and hardship and all. I pray that they will see your love, mercy, kindness, miracles and all above and come to know that you, truly are, the greatest.
And so ends this prayer Lord. I will be sure to share with them the video you have for us all. (:
And if they've watch it already Lord, let them watch it again to be reminded.
In Jesus' precious and holy name,
Amen.


So yeah everyone! The video:



and right! The Lord's Prayer. (:

"After this manner therefore pray ye:

Our Father which art in Heaven

Hallowed be thy name.

Thy Kingdom come

Thy will be done

in earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread

And forgive us our debts and we forgive our debtors.

And lead us not into temptations

but deliver us from evil:

For thine is the kingdom

and the power

and the glory

forever.

Amen"

(It's not in modern english, more like olden days, but i like it like that. (: Again, Luke 11:2-4  )

30 hour famine; how lucky we are

So I've decided to try doing the 30 hour famine. (not eating for 30 hours).
30 hour famine is to experience and be reminded how many are like around the world that are "less fortunate" than us. 
I was only experiencing with it for this year. Next year, I might raise some money to help.
Within those 30 hours, of course I was hungry. Did I have a choice? Yes, but I was choosing to be hungry. Keyword: CHOOSING. The hunger i've experienced within those 30 hours is much different compared to those around the world. They starve to death. We cannot say that we "starve" to death, because we have food and can eat anytime. While others do not have a choice on what they eat and when they eat.

STARVE
weaken or die because of hunger: to weaken or die through lack of food, or cause somebody to do this.

^Are we... WEAKEN or DYING because of lack of food? No. I see food everywhere. Therefore we cannot say we are starving; that is a lie.

Here are some clips:







Experiencing the 30 hour famine while also learning new things from my friend's church made me realize that we're luckier than we think we are. Richer than we think we are too.
Learned in friend's church:
-are we filthy rich, average, or poor? --> we're filthy rich to be able to live with the things we have now.
-children die every 3 (or 7 according to the video) seconds
and some other things.

I encourage you to give it a try if you haven't already. You may learn something new.

What can you do
on an empty stomach?

God's Creation.

So what is this? Advertisement on Heidi Montag?
uh, no. I don't even know who she is 
Gossiping?
nope, this isn't about gossiping
Plastic Surgery?
Close.
So... what IS today's post about?
Well, watch the video first and let me tell you. It's NOT about Heidi Montag and her plastic surgery and how she almost died. But it's something within that video that she said.

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8 minutes later.

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So I assume you're probably done watching the video now? Alright. So within the video is the post for today. Anyone have a clue?
No? Yes? Either way you'll find out.
Heidi Montag. American... person. Age 23, has gone through surgery as stated in the video.
She also stated that she's a strong believer in God.
So many people think that she has rejected the way God made her and was unhappy about her looks.
Heidi on the other hand thought that it was an extra from God because he knew she would take on this career and that God had created the plastic surgeon for her.

So... which is the real answer?
i always thought... that we shouldn't change our appearance {such like plastic surgery for cosmetics} because the way we look is the way God created us. Otherwise we wouldn't look the way we would now. If God wanted us to look like how we would after the plastic surgery, wouldn't he have done so in the very beginning? I don't know, we're all made uniquely in our own ways because that's how God made us. I don't know why we can't be happy with or appreciate the way we look or why people don't like the way other people look.
"Oh my gosh she's so ugly!"
No, you're wrong. She may be ugly to you but in God's eyes, she's one of his masterpiece that has yet a long future to go. Beauty on the outside is not everything, it's what counts on the inside the most.
"Okay like... his hair style is so 70's"
You know what? Does it matter how his hair looks? It's the way he likes it and it's the way he wants it to be. Don't judge what others like.
"That outfit was so last year"
Not everyone LIKE to be or WANTS to be or IS up to date. What about you? Why do you have to keep up with all the latest trend? So you can look "hot" while it's still "in"? Or so you don't look like some loser? Pshh, yeah right. Thanks but no thanks.

So yeah I think i've gone off topic a bit but you all pretty much get where i'm going, right?
What do YOU think? Do you think it's right to get plastic surgery for cosmetics and not for medical conditions JUST because you think you look ugly? Or maybe it's not right?
Do you think your appearance is a gift from God? Or the ability to get plastic surgery is a gift from God?
As my friend said "their appearance is a unique gift from God". I agree with her.

Leave a comment down below on what you think please. (:

and now... brought to you by Kokoro, a song by Mark Wills. Although i don't think it's the original version.
 it's to represent what we've just finished discussing. (:
So here it is... Don't Laugh at Me

I'm a little boy with glasses
The one they call the feek
A little girl who never smiles
'Cause I've got braces on my teeth
And I know how it feels
To cry myself to sleep

I'm that kid on every playground
Who's always chosen last
A single teenage mother
Tryin' to overcome my past
You don't have to by my friend
But is it too much to ask

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me

I'm the cripple on the corner
You've passed me on the street
And i wouldn't be out here beggin'
If I had enough to eat
And don't think I don't notice
That our eyes never meet

I lost my wife and a little boy when
Someone cross that yellow line
The lay we laid them in the ground
Is the day i lost my mind
And right now I'm down to holdin'
This little cardboard sign... so

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me

I'm fat, I'm thin, I'm short, I'm tall
I'm deaf, I'm blind, hey aren't we all

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me

Don't Laugh At Me
^click it. (:

Yeah, i really like that song too. Very meaningful. Some parts are touching and teary. (:
love you all, for who you are and how you were created. (:

Child of Mine

I have a song to share. (: Lyrics actually since there is no music accompanying it.{yet}

Some of you may have heard it because i probably might've played it around you.

I encountered this song when I was in church. Steve Chau, former member of Singing Water {I should post a song from singing waters (:   } came and told us a testimony. It was very touching. It actually even answered some of my wonders and question about things. Powerful ain't it? I haven't been to church for a while that time because of homework and all, and i've been wondering so much on a question my friend and i were debating about. So one day i go to church and apparently Steve Chau was just passing by and it was unexpected for him to be here, but I feel that God has allowed me to go that day, the same day Steve {keep typing stever} Chau coincidentally came was for the purpose of resolving my answer. I don't remember what it was, i believe something about whether God tests your faith in him or not. *checks* yeah, it is. and i forgot my answer. D: must ask mom again since what she told me was EXACTLY what Steve Chau said. So anyway, near the end, he played this song. {by the way, God DOES test you in your faith. Why? Did Jesus not test Peter in his faith for Jesus while Jesus asked Peter to walk to him upon the water? ;) be ready.}

but I truly love this song with all my heart. Why?

This song is in the perspective of the God. How he is, how he feels about you etc. I think this song is deep if you listen to it very carefully. It not only puts you to ease because it shows how much God is with you and all, but the melody is also very nice. {Shall include a link to listen to it as well}

So first, read the words. Absorb all that's written and read it with your heart. Read it a few times, then listen to it. Although the singer is a female and I imagine the voice of God to be really deep, just listen to it. Close your eyes and listen to it. Don't let anything distract you, have a moment to yourself. Just you, and the thoughts that God has put into the hands of a woman to express it through a song.

I truly think it's a deep song. Here are the lyrics:

My child be all that I purposed you to be

My child there's so much more than you could ever think or see

My child, your potential is greater than you know

My child I'll take you places you never dreamed you'd go

So don't lean on your own understanding

And in all things acknowledge me

And as you trust in me with all of your heart

I will make straight your path

CHORUS: Child of mine, be mine

                    Child of mine, be mine

                    I've loved you since the beginning of time so child

                    Be mine, be mine, be mine

My child, you were born for such a time as this

My child there is a reason, a plan for which you exist

My child I knew you before you were conceived

My child if you think I don't care then you have been deceived

Don't be dismayed when I discipline you

It's only what a loving father would do

Now if you ask me I'll forgive you, every single thing

Just open up your heart and ask me to come in.

CHORUS: Child of mine, be mine

                    Child of mine, be mine

                    I've loved you since the beginning of time so child

                    Be mine, be mine, be mine

BRIDGE: Never meant for you to run, never meant for you to hide

                 Never meant for you to live without me in your life

                 But your choice has to be yours and your mind must be your own

                 So until you ask me in your heart your heart can't be my home.

CHORUS: Child of mine, be mine

                    Child of mine, be mine

                    I've loved you since the beginning of time so child

                    Be mine, be mine, be mine

INSTRUMENTAL

I know every hair on your precious head

I know everything you've done and every word you ever said

I know the number of your days

Your strengths, your weaknesses, your ways

One day you'll know how much I love you

`Cause I'll tell you face to face

CHORUS: Child of mine, be mine

                    Child of mine, be mine

                    I've loved you since the beginning of time so child

                    Be mine, be mine, be mine

So that's the song. Once you think you've understood it all, i encourage you to listen to it:

 Child of Mine

Enjoy it. (:

Satanist? What?

Satanist. What's a satanist? Well, like Christians, satanist worships something. UNLIKE Christians, they worship SATAN/LUCIFER while Christians worship the one and only Heavenly God.
Who's God?
Only the creator of the world, universe and everything.
Who's Satan?
Better known as the devil.
Truth be told, Satan is actually a fallen angel of God's. So what's the story? {made kid friendly.. i hope}
Once upon a time, long long long long long long long long {you get the point} time ago, God appeared. (: No one knows how because that's how powerful he is. He created angels to help him. Then he created the earth and nature and light and everything you see on earth basically. BUT. Among his angels, one named SATAN saw how powerful GOD is. Being jealous of God, Satan wanted to be BETTER and more POWERFUL than God. And so.. well I don't quite remember. I think God knew and forbid Satan to go back to the realms of Heaven. So now there's  a Hell where the devil lives.
SO QUESTION. How can you become more powerful than your creator? That's highly unlikely to happen. They're your creator, they know everything about you. So I think Satan's just wasting his time. {GOD'S #1!!} (:

So today, while going through youtube, I came across a piece composed by Beethoven called "Moonlight Sonata". A beautiful piece indeed. A deep and meaningful piece that can touch the heart.... if strong enough to. ANYWAY, so I was looking through the comments but i noticed all of them were by ONE person replying to MANY OTHERS. I found it weird. But looking at the comment, i noticed that all the words were swear words. I wasn't happy. I looked further in the older comments and found yet ANOTHER person replying to many others with rude remarks. I clicked their youtube account. The first thing I saw? Flames as background. Videos? Seems to be about cuts and scars and blood and etc. i knew it. this was the type of account i didn't want to be on. But because of my curiosity, i stayed to see more of what is to come. When the page was done loading, I scrolled down to their "about me" side. First thing I see from that? Upside down cross. I knew right away this person was a satanist. Though they call themselves an atheist but strongly follows "their lord, lucifer". I believe that's not an atheist anymore then. Looking through, i see comments on their "wall" saying "praise lucifer" and "666". I looked at the page with horror and shook my head and went

"Lord, they do not know what they're doing. They cannot see the love you are providing them. Satan has already controlled them. But if able, please try to save the soul of this lost one. Let them see the light through the tunnel they are walking through and let them see that all tunnels have an end. And if not, turn back towards the light they once walked. Lord, I pray that they will find peace in their souls once again. I pray that the curse among this soul be taken. Just like Jesus when he drove the evil spirits away from a man unto pigs that went flying into the water near them and the evil spirits were drowned. Father God, please save them. Let them see that the path towards you is much better than going to Satan."

For those of you who would like to see what i'm talking about, here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQVeaIHWWck
i will let you find the person. you don't HAVE to see, but this is something i'd like many to avoid walking towards. >__<;

Anyway, be sure to check the prayer requests and pray for those who need it. (:

sinking to the earth's core {moved}

WARNING: Parents do not read this. THIS INCLUDES YOU FREDDY. (: {i'm just joking}

Dedications to my little ninja; tinaa c. and just about all of the people who get angry.

Have you ever had a time when you were just SO angry you can just blow up? or maybe you feel like you're about to grab a heavy object and just whip it to the other side of the room? Or maybe even go as far as wanting to jump off the CNTOWER? {or at least something tall}

i know i have. BUT that's normal. (: {and if you've never felt this way, something's wrong with you. seriously. go see a doctor}

many of us are furious with our parents. WHY do they have to ask such pointless questions? WHY do they have to do this to me? WHY do they have to care so much about me? {because they love you} WHY do they give me a hard time? WHY can't they mind their own business? WHY can't they leave me alone? WHY do they have to talk about me so loudly on purpose? WHY can't they say it to my face in a more calm tone? WHY can't they let me be in peace? WHY can't they see i'm busy? WHY are they in my room? WHY can't they just leave? WHY this WHY that. WHY do we complain? Our minds are all full of questions on WHY our parents have to do what they do. simple, the answer is that they love you. I often go into the "why" phrase of life with my parents. Never thought of THEIR whys for us.

WHY won't my child listen to me? WHY can't they see that i'm doing this for their own good? WHY do they have to rebel against me? WHY can't they see i care for them? WHY can't they see i do this out of love? WHY do they not understand i'm only making sure they're safe? WHY do they have to push me aside? WHY is it that my child will grow up to hate me when i've done so much for them? WHY can't they see all the work i've done or them?

of course, i'm not a parent. i wouldn't know all the whys that go on in their head. as a child, i would know our whys. sometimes we wish that our parents can disappear. then we'd be so happy. What about people without parents? how they just WISH to have parents to teach them what's wrong and what's right. We should very well appreciate all that our parents have done for us and will do for us for the rest of their lives. don't expect that parents will live forever.

two things in life that are guaranteed: taxes and death.

so folks.

have you ever told your parents you LOVE them? Ever talked to them within the past few years? Like... actually had a GOOD, heart to heart conversation? Sat down and just laughed with them? Apparently many adolescences don't. {but i do. *starts bragging * ahhaha no.. but i do talk with them}. Parents get hurt easily when you don't TALK to them. They're perhaps happiest in their heart when you do talk to them. EVEN if they don't show it, they ARE happy.

my fellow friends.

sometimes we wish to CRY so badly. Or even HARM ourselves with a simple sharp object. {let's not go into detail}. Why? So that we can get rid of all the darkness that's collecting in our hearts. Let me say; BE GONE SATAN! THE LORD IS OUR REFUGE AND STRENGTH! WITH HIM ALONE WE CAN LIVE THROUGH ALL TEMPTATIONS OF YOURS. And if we fall, there are many others to help us get up again. And most importantly: have GOD bring us back up again through the power of TRUST and FAITH in the LORD.

so let's go back to the topic about CRYING ourselves to the ends of the earth full of tears. okay im just kidding. jeez, trying to lighten up the mood here...... right, so many of us WANT to CRY {but end up with the sharp object} or actually CRY out.

People, it's okay to cry. Sure, you want to put up a mask or think you're STRONG. But i'm sorry to break it to you... you're not as strong as you think. PHYSICALLY sure, but EMOTIONALLY?... yeah... we'll have to think about that.

like i said to my friend:

it's okay to be weak sometimes. That's what God is for. When we're weak, God will be there to give us a shoulder to lean on and a hand to help us up. weSHOULD be strong, that's what we think, but there are times when being weak means God's waiting for us to run into his open arms so he may embrace us tight and tell us "it's ok my child, it's okk, you have me and i'll always be there for you." he's always behind us to make sure we don't fall to the ground. but he's also in front of us to lead us to the light; the right path of life.

listen well my friends, for God has a plan for you. THIS anger. THIS life you have... is all just the beginning. There is MORE to come and the future? MUCH scarier than what you have. NOW you can rely on friends and parents. but in the future? Who's there for you? LIVE well and learn the words of the bible, so that no matter when and where, you know that you can rely on GOD the most. Relying on GOD and HUMANS, there's a difference between those two. I shall let you discover that on your own. The difference between relying on people and GOD.

What IS the difference?

{wanna cbox your thoughts? ;)}

and yes... my parents tell me "you know how to SAY it but you don't know how to SHOW it". I should learn to do exactly what i've just said...

well, took an hour and 15 minutes writing this. TIME TO SLEEP.

New Blog

Hi! Okay, so I lied. I did make a new blog while I was supposed to be doing health brochure. >___<;; bad, i know right? Anyway.

Welcome to my new blog. (: here i will be posting uhmmm.... my spiritual growth with God... or anything related to being spiritual.. or something

God, please help this blog be filled with your blessing and words of wisdom. (: